I am moody. I am melancholic. Sometimes I am on the verge of crying for no reason at all. I cannot explain it. It just is. I don't know what I want or what I miss.
I don't feel like exercising. I could go to the pool, I could hop on the trainer or hit the treadmill at the gym. But all I can handle right now are the weekly yoga class, the group swim and the group bike classes. On my own, nothing at all.
I have been in this funk for a few weeks now and I don't know why.
Too many variables:
Maybe it's Seasonal Affective Disorder because I hate the cold and the way it makes my body feel (Raynaud's, asthma, dry skin) and I'd rather be somewhere sunny instead?
Maybe because I changed my diet and my body misses the double dose of carbs/sugar?
Maybe because I am often feeling hungry and I run out of energy?
Maybe I am just hangry?
Maybe because I'm tired and need a vacation?
Maybe because my body is all screwed up since I've cut 3/4 of my workouts out (4h/week instead of 12h)?
Maybe because I'm no longer racing?
Maybe because I'm getting older?
Maybe because I miss my friends and being social?
Maybe because I'm scared of what's to come?
It can be any of these, or none, or all at once. I have 2 more weeks to snap out of it. Until then, I leave you with a picture that makes me feel better. I don't know who took it, so I apologize to the owner for not crediting them here, but it's too beautiful not to share.
|I see me.|